My mind and soul is not one person but two different person. My mind said to do this, but my soul refuse to do so. I'll be honest, I take reality like it is a joke. I pretend to not care and laugh it off but inside it kills me. We all want happiness but happiness is hard to keep. It has its limit just like you and I. We both know we can only go to certain degree. Beyond that its either we're hurt enough to do something stupid, had enough bullshit, or simply don't care anymore.